"I'm still very interested."

He thinks he should make that clear.

"But I've been considering it and I think that...

I want everything to go well."

His voice slows down; this is important and he wants to get it right.

"I told you I would stop if I needed to, and I will, but that doesn't make it something I want to do. And I'm afraid that if if it's the first time we...try to be intimate, then I will do it.





I thought that maybe...we could...practice, for lack of a better word."